I'm aware that it has been a couple of days since my last post.
Today was a not so good day. Now days tend to be like rollercoasters. One moment I am up and the next I'm down. These days I've been feeling the pain around my chest, like a vice crushing my lungs, I can't breathe. Sometimes I want to scream, other days I want to sit in the middle of anywhere and disappear, but other days I go back to old habits. Today my anxiety is almost crippling and the voices started yelling in my head. I went back to old habits, i started pulling to ease myself. I look down and I'm covered in hair so I remembered, the gloves!
For the first time since I bought them I had to recurred to them. At first they felt warm and fuzzy, then the pain. It started in my fingers, like a low hum. It ran to my hands, it's an extraordinary pain. I just want to take the gloves off. I keep arguing in my head, begging... please just take them off!!!
It's like I can't breathe, i just need to breathe, let me breathe.....